destruction

by Angela
(Indiana)

Question

Somehow I want to believe I can recover. But I feel so beaten down, not so much by my abuser so much as knowing that I saw it happening and allowed it again and again. How could my self esteem be so low that I would allow someone to harm me so much... How do I recover? Will I ever feel whole again? And then can I ever trust me again?

Answer

From your question I sense that this is in your past. Which means you did get away from your abuser. That alone is a great place to start. You loved yourself enough to get away from the situation. Now all you have to do is keep building that love and acceptance for yourself. I would highly recommend you purchase the book You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay. This book will help you forgive yourself and your abuser.